OK, now what?

So I start working again tomorrow. Just teaching swim lessons a couple times a week, nothing big, really. But it feels big. And I'm not sure I like it. I guess I'm outing myself here, but I have an old-fashioned love of mothering. I like having flexible days. I like moments when my kiddo asks me crazy questions that make no sense to my adult brain. I like struggling to organize & maintain my house and thinking about our future of homeschooling. And I think I'm going to dislike this distraction of work away from my house. So I guess I'm kinda scared but I want the membership to the Y that comes with minimal employment (D's just now going under water and pushing off the wall & I really don't want to start all over again next summer). Plus, it'd be really good to swim some laps (especially after the depressing ordeal of buying a new suit that's appropriate for laps & teaching... let's just say I'm not 16 and swimming 6 hours a day anymore. I'm trying not to dwell. Pray for me.) I guess I'm kinda scared by the whole prospect.

In other, less whiny news, G-girl is pushing to a sit! D and I were brushing our teeth last Thursday morning and looked over to see her sitting up! She's gotten quite good at it even in the past 5 days and now spends a lot of her time crying after bonking her nose (or cheek, or back of her head) on the floor. She hasn't quite mastered the sit-to-crawl maneuver. However, she is scooting pretty fast these days and occasionally I even see a bit of the cross-crawl motion creeping in! Any day now D is going to holler from the other room that she's attacking his toys!

And I wish I was getting enough sleep to remember some of the amazingly cute things D-boy has been saying recently. But I'm not. Maybe I'll start writing them on the calender.